the new chapter...

Just Breathe. Never has that saying meant so much to me.

I have backspaced so many times trying to figure out where to start with this post. Do I talk about my job or is that boring? Do I talk about any updates in my life and if so what are they? Do I remember a funny story to share or are there too many? I felt that it was necessary to update my blog, but yet can't quite find the words to say. So we'll start here...

4 months ago I graduated from college. Since then, I have really turned over a new leaf and found this desire to dive into what seems to be a never ending pile of work that I have stacked so high on my desk that you can barely see me through my office door window. I say that because even though it seems overwhelming, I have never been more satisfied and happy with where I am in my life until now. Sure there are a few things missing from the 'master plan' but fortunately for me, I have already been forced to white-out some of those plans along the way. I'm not afraid to tweak the plan and I'm certainly willing to accept any other surprises thrown my way because 4 months ago I was under the impression that I would be starting graduate classes tomorrow and here I sit in my office that is bigger than my bedroom at home, typing on my office computer, and smiling at the fact that I am a professional staff member at SUNY Cortland. I have faith in God and whatever it is that is in store for me, but I will say it has been quite the ride getting to where I am today. As different as it may sound I wake up excited to go to my office every morning because I am so happy with my job and everything it is to me. I certainly don't want to fall into the trap of 'my work is my life' but I'm perfectly content knowing that I have found something I really enjoy doing for now and that is one of the best feelings in the world.

One thing that has been pulling at my heartstrings a tad, especially now that the students are back, is the fact that 4 months ago I was a student here. I'm more than ready to start this new chapter of my life, but I have found myself pulling out the photo albums and watching the videos of my friends from the best four years of my life that seem like just yesterday. I'm okay with it, but sometimes even a song will bring tears to my eyes as I remember all of the memories attached to it. To be able to have such a strong connection to those 4 years makes me that much more excited to see what is in my future. I'm ready for the next step in every area of my life...if only those areas were ready for me. For now, I will focus on what seems to be working- my job, but I certainly won't close the door on anything else that wants to come my way.